Vivid Dreams (I think)

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I think my brain is either stressed or overstimulated. I don't know which but I'm having this really extremely bizarre dreams lately. I did some research, but the dreams I have been having aren't like anything I can find online. They are not nightmares; the dreams don't terrify me into waking up shaking and clammy. I don't wake up and feel exhausted, nor do I confuse my dreams with reality in the slightest. The way they are extremely realistic is several ways...I won't tell what about though. As it mostly involve my past experiences. 

The weird thing is, as real as they are, I am aware that my dreams are separate from reality, which is one major symptom some people have (*not* being able to distinguish, that is). I am not terrified by my dreams, so they aren't nightmares, where it is common for dreams to be vivid. I don't wake up feeling exhausted, rather I wake up refreshed. I don't dread going to sleep, and I'm also not an insomniac. I'm not taking any medication currently that could affect it. I'm not interested in interpreting the dreams, I just want to know why I am having them. 

Vivid. Colored. Realistic. Bizarre. 

Gosh, this feels like deja vu. 


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